~~~~~UNTITLED~~~~

 FROM TIME TO TIME I WILL BE SHARING WITH YOU SOME POETRY AND WRITINGS THAT WERE GIVEN TO ME FROM A WAY EARLIER DATE..I PRAY THAT THEY BRING YOU CLOSER TO THE FATHER...This poem was inspired by a release of guilt and pain i had carried some time back and had learned thru scripture that we dont have to carry any of it!! for it was taken on my Jesus upon his crucifixion, and death..every stripe, every bruise, every painful step he took was for you, and me ..~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


I complain to you my father about the problems of the day
I struggle with the words of men , and the words that they say
I utter my dissapointment to you, my closest friend
yet
I cry bitter tears flowing without end
I tell you God in Heaven the desires of my heart
I tell you of dissapointments,in deeds i have a part
I pray for sweet forgiveness for all that i have done
I ask for you to bless me with love i dont deserve

I know i am a sinner, and i know i am ashamed
I come to you my God, broken and to blame
I pray please forgive me, and wait on your reply
Knowing in my heart that you see far more than  i

I complain to you my father and forget who's in control.
If not for your love for me, i would be left alone.
To you i give my inner self , to you i give my all
I lay everything at your feet , and begin to let it go


I cry ABBA FATHER! for i've nothing else to say When all is closing in on me with the trials of the day
And then as i am crying you come and rescue me
Telling me "  My child , my child, where did you Think i'd be?"
"  Did you think i was not here when angry words Were said, and where did you think i was when you Hung your head?"
"   I hear your prayers to me , and i know that you Complain,  i know about your bitterness, your hurt, And your shame!"'
"   I see the the way you stumble, and i'm looking as You fall , remember i am your father, and wait upon Your call!"
"  You always want your father , when you are failing Fast, but where were you when you heard me speak  In times gone in the past?"
"  Come to me my precious one and we will sort this Thru, again i am your father, and i'm looking out For you!"
"  Trials come and they go yet it remains the same, Listen to me , your father, as your dealing with your shame!"


                                       Lorey McConnell 
                                             7/9/2004                                              








 

DO WE KNOW WHO WE REALLY HURT WITH A LIE?

As i think about so many things this week i am amazed how much and to what extent people will go thru to lie, slander and yes even twist the facts to benefit themselves at all costs yet the ugly black core , the gut of it all is so rotten that they themselves cannot even stand to utter it out loud! We as humans have this dark ability and yet fake a smile and for pretense will not even be honest enough within ourselves...for if we were we would have to hold ourselves accountable for our thoughts and deeds and all the lies we tell to decieve each other..when in reality isnt it us within ourselves we are torturing ? because we know the truth! and yet are so unwilling, even to our own hearts, to come out with it!. Whats even worse is that we have become so callous that we will even convince ourselves that its ok!! how sad this must make the God who created us! and how much more of a poor representation of him are we when we practice such evil and wicked ways!
As i am guilty as the rest of this , i 'm quick to see it and ask for the Lords guidance,i do not want to be among those who choose willingly to do the work of satan, and destroy the morality and character that God has placed within me, And as i reflect more on this i must also seperate myself from those whom choose to practice deceipt,and every corrupt behavior that God himself calls outright WILLFUL SINNING! there is also a time in our lives when we must follow our own convictions and be brave enough to stand for what that conviction tells us no matter who or what may come against us, may it be loss of job,home ,children, family and yes even one own life if it called for that! Trusting in God to secure you and keep you safe from these things is an act of faith so many have not, because of fear acted on!   
Who cares what the world thinks about me if God is for me, this world is not my friend and it cannot not will it ever be my home! If people would turn from their wicked ways and listen to the voice of the father there would be no need to lie, cheat, steal,slander,and rip apart families,marriages,and personal relationships...but until that day we pray...pray for those that know the truth and run from it, those whom choose willingly to sin because they dont thing there is a price to be paid,and those whom have yet to discover whom Jesus is and the forgiveness that his death and life bring.... truth is not as hard to live with as a lie,deception is much more a burden then honesty, and anger is unnecessary if your heart is one with God~~ BLESSINGS ALL

DID I OFFEND YOU?.....

 I was thinking the other day as i had some time alone ( which isn't often) about what i could say to anyone that would make a difference today ..what words could i use to make them take notice ? is there a single word that could unlock the human heart to release the love, compassion, caring, kindness, patience? ahhh i have said so many things that i have heard polite responses to ..like " wow i never gave it much thought," or " ill have to think on what you said" or the safe answer " i see what your saying"but the truth is how many have heard me speak  and shrugged and said  "oh thats craziness, nonsense!"  im sure, in fact i know because i have heard these words as they walked away from me rolling their eyes and shaking their heads...even to the point of becomming angry and offended !
i have overheard the snearing jokes& the laughter when they thought i wasnt listening. Did i offend you because you stood in a mirror and looked at what the world cannot see? were you angered because somewhere inside your mind or heart something i may of said stirred the sleeping beast that you though you had hidden? Did i perhaps make you uncomfortable around your "friends" ? the ones who encourage you to fight against yourself?..i cannot tel you how many times i have cried over being rejected, laughed at and even mocked for what i know is truth! Yet you politely sit and listen , all the while owndering when i will be done talking so you can go on with your day , as if you have all the time in the world!..
Did i offend you with my openess? maybe something i said stuck in your mind  and you cant get loose from it? is that why you chose to avoid me? even worse ignore me!..Its ok, ive gotten use to it..and as time goes on i see more and more of the people i thought i called "friend" promise me that we will"get together" and leave me waiting at the window....
So if i offended you by truth, life, joy and peace, im not sorry...if i angered you  by something i shared in a group of friends, made you look at yourself and point a finger..im not sorry...the only thing i would have to say that im sorry for is that one day when i do come back here one last time to collect my own  i will have never of known you. because you did not know me.....JESUS